In October 2003, my husband Jeff and I welcomed our first child, Caroline. By the following year we decided it was time to try for our second. In August of 2005, we went in for our first ultrasound at 9 weeks and heard for the first time that our baby did not have a heartbeat. After being told that early miscarriage is common, we pressed on to try again and were pregnant again in November. Everything looked great at our first and second appointments, but at 17 weeks we heard again, “I am sorry there is no heartbeat.” Our son, Benjamin Daniel, was stillborn on February 14, 2006.
At that point, someone told me about M.E.N.D., but I wasn’t ready to admit that I needed to go to a support group. In June of 2006, we were pregnant again. And again, we were told that the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks. On July 21, 2006, I scheduled a D&C and that night I made my husband drive me to my first M.E.N.D. meeting. I was at the bottom and had no idea how to keep going. There I found women who knew exactly where I was. A place where I could let down my guard and be honest without fear of judgment or platitudes. M.E.N.D. became my lifeline and with time it became where I began to turn my mess into my ministry.
In August of 2007, our son Joshua was born and in June of 2009, his brother Weston joined the family. M.E.N.D. continued to be a support as I walked the scary road of subsequent pregnancies where stress and worry were a constant companion.
In June of 2011, we decided to try for the fourth child we had always wanted. Believing that what we had been through before must be behind us, we went through the first two appointments with no problems, and then at 15 weeks we again heard, “no heartbeat.” Our son, Jonathan, was stillborn on September 8, 2011.
In July of 2012 and November of 2015, we added two more boys to our family on earth, Colton and Levi. Then on January 22, 2018, at 12 weeks pregnant we lost our son Lane and in July of 2018, we miscarried twins at 7 weeks.
After being a part of the Houston chapter of M.E.N.D. for 10 years my family moved to Denver in 2016. I felt called to bring M.E.N.D. to Denver. The Lord has opened so many doors to provide this ministry to the families of the Front Range and I am blessed to be able to offer them the hope that I received from M.E.N.D. through all of our losses.
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